* lyn : )

♥ Thursday, May 31, 2007 ♥

11:59:00 PM

BLOODY HELL!
i'm so sick of project works
now i understood wad mich means
it's taxing
yes it is

and my parents quarrelled AGAIN
cant be bothered anyway

changed my hair style today
and i cant wait to highlight them in like 1 month later?
: )

and i'm off to sleep now :D

♥ Wednesday, May 30, 2007 ♥

9:49:00 PM

today's presentation was like a disaster?
i'll look into today's comment given
and improve myself
: )

one presentation down,
two more to go; F.O.N and psycho
hopefully the outcome'd be great

ph tmr, getting my good and early sleep cause i'm just too tired
and it's finally a break

i'm lazy to get my butt out of the house to
town to get the right size for my lappie
and cut my hair and probably do some highlight?
: ))

friends doesnt leave people in the lurch
and if u do that i supposed
that'd mean u aint even a friend

and now i know
how u took steps to forget me
fine fine .
i dun give it a damn either

all those time seem totally STUPID
and to think i wasted my precious youth
to be bothered to do STUPID stuffs

♥ Monday, May 28, 2007 ♥

4:40:00 PM

i went to school without getting any knowledge
class sucks today
because it's like i onli attend 1h of class?
and 50 min of test?
and that's all

WASTE TIME ONLY!!

how i wish i had my besties with me
and we'd be having fun etc

and i'm so happy that CH was confirm
= )
*loves*

♥ Saturday, May 26, 2007 ♥

10:28:00 AM

Things i wan to do during term break:

meet my darlings in/from sb14
go K with the girls
teach PRINCESS DIANA
do preparatory work for school
chiong maple till 60?
slack
go shopping
train for fb?

: )

♥ Friday, May 25, 2007 ♥

9:38:00 PM

i went for 1h and 3o min of class today.
and point is to go to and fro sch i need 2 and a half hour
it's such a waste of my time!

did project work in library for 3 hours
and i left sch at 1.40pm?

phoned samantha cause she doesnt want to go shopping
and we decided to meet and have a meal?
and when i reach tamp at 3
she's still at home
oh gosh

and i waited for 1hour for my dear?
but it's okay la
cause i was like doing my ICA la
hahas!

i really miss her alot!
it've been ages since i last seen her
so we went to wangzai (pasir ris) to eat
it was NICE!

but i miss hk cafe more!!
i miss the 2 trips i had there
although the 2nd one wasnt really that great
cause xiao bu's leaving?

heading down to PS this sun!
i cant wait to see xiao BU!
my another darling =)

I hope my darling PRINCESS DIANA is feeling better
hope to see the noisy and playful her; not the sad one
I wish she'll get into NYP and be a wonderful nurse like me!
i just hope she doesnt regret anything when she take her cert

just like me
i was so upset over my english result and my physics too
):

♥ Thursday, May 24, 2007 ♥

9:33:00 PM

my mum was kind of against me of joining the team for fb ) :
she thought i just wanted to join for leisure
no no no!
i wan to take part in competitions!
i wan to score = )

and najib is in fb too!
in sch team = )
shall get him to teach me more ways to improve
and train for the better

* * *

i need to pay more attention during lectures
i seem to be either sleeping or talking
and i do not do any revision at home
so this explains the poor results i'm getting during bio test
and i'm still very sad over it ) :

somehow i think having a sch that isn't near my house aint too good
long bus rides are forever making me sleepy
and i've never feel well taking long bus rides
due to motion sickness

having bio lessons early in the morning!
ZzZ! time for sleep = )

♥ Tuesday, May 22, 2007 ♥

9:05:00 PM

biology test is finally over!
and it calls for a break now

gotten a C, which is 60-69%
i know i would have gotten a better grades
if i really studied over the weekends

but on the other hand
i think a 60+ percent aint too bad la!

more and more projects coming up
and i wonder why SOME people just dun understand this?
i know the course i'm studying like wad many had mentioned, it's a 28 points course
but that doesn't mean there isn't projects or hwk!

there's so much things to do
and i'm sure the amount of homework is much more than others
having e learning and pre-reading
who says nursing is only for those ppl who are lousy in O

that's wad the public's POV
it's only through going though the whole process
than YOU can understand how much work we are doing

* PISSED *
i just dun understand what u are thinking

* * *

As time goes on, i wondered if nursing is the right career for me
but somehow, i think it's a blessing to offer our NURSING CARE to patients
and see them get well
isn't like a form of happiness? (:

it's true, it's not an easy job
but somehow i hope this is the right career for me
i really think nurses are great people!

but i heard lots of things from those working in hospitals
and i think it's quite sad.
so i must be someone who's going to make a difference in the world!

people, give me moral support!!
hahas!

♥ Monday, May 21, 2007 ♥

9:33:00 PM

i think i seriously need to see a psychiatrist .
i do have a problem that's bothering me for a long period of time .
i must get my problem cured soon!

* * *

BIOLOGY is still trying to get hold of me
cause the test aint over yet!

projects, projects and more projects are coming up on week seven .
i'm dying from the large amount of homework

Things i have to complete tmr:

video on f.o.n
read lab skills for class

Things to complete next week:

LIFE SCIENCE test (MON)
FOUNDATION OF NURSING ICA 2 (TUE)
CRITICAL THINKING ICA 4 (WED)
DRAFT OF PSYCHOLOGY (FRI)
DISCUSSION FOR TUTORIAL 2 (FRI)

& how am i supposed to complete all of them in one week?
i feel so crazy if i am able to complete all of them
* HELP *

THANK GOD, it's all lectures on thurs!

i need a large strength to drive me through this.
probably i need u?

♥ Sunday, May 20, 2007 ♥

9:44:00 PM

BIO TEST!
they are driving me mad

and i'm losing the momentum to keep myself in track!
losing control of my mind

i must be the nice and wonderful nurse!!
must keep myself in the right track soon!

=D

I MISS MY GIRLFRIENDS !
chua: for those indian rojaks and sakae sushi times
chinhui: for those shopping times and spending money
simin: for those nonsensical craziness and everything
xiao bu n mrs rain: for those fun and laughters in sb14
diana: for being a naughty girl but full of jokes
yiping: for those chats outside pwp and long bus rides
samantha: for always standing up for the rights of sb14

& MK & AH BOY & JOAN

♥ Saturday, May 19, 2007 ♥

10:05:00 AM

collecting my fb sticks later =)
yay-ness!!

but i got to go sch ALONE
and go back ALONE
lol.

upset man ):

probably i shld go visit lao nu ren!
or shld i visit my martini textbook again?
cause i want to finish my whole revision by today
and i can relax on sun and mon .
isn't it cool.

HAHA =)

♥ Friday, May 18, 2007 ♥

9:29:00 PM

It's the end of the week again!
finally, i get some rest cause there wont be any meeting on sunday
although there'll be bio test next tue
but i'll make sure i'm fully prepared
and not be late on that day .

anisa is my darling!
and the both of us are like super crazy during today's lecture
we have private jokes about something
and it's like quite sick la .
it was actually a simple thing
and i wondered how come we could laugh till that stage

and the both of us have decided to buy the sony mp3 tgt
HAHA
guessed we have similar mind set (:

today BIO was the best ever
having anisa sitting right beside me
joke until i laugh almost non stop
and the whole grp of us teasing sangeeta
damn funny throughout the whole thing

and the lesson today was the most interesting!
i swear i want to right more and more notes during KJ's lecture
cause it's really interesting

the practical lesson was just as good as the lecture
cause instead of a 2 hours lesson
we onli had like 4o min?
BUT the lesson were filled with impt stuffs
hopefully i get this lecturer again

cause i like the speed he's talking
and he's like helping us to do revision today?
'tho i dun understand alot of things
but i've decided to study hard for bio
cause it's interesting and important for a wonderful nurse to-be
and that's ME =D

and lots of pictures have been taken during pract
will post it soon
hah!

i love my classmates
i love the way they are
especially my grp
we always have things to talk about
jokes to share
<3!

new song! nice nice!
and check out this chinese song.. 我可以
i think i'd like it if someone i'm in love sings that
isn't the song sweet =)

new songs updated in imeem.com!
click here for the link

i dun quite know why
it's always like i miss ur presence?
somehow, my smiles are like created by you?
(=

9:00:00 PM

Janice Wei Lan - Never Let You Go Lyrics

The rain just never seems to bring the joy, I feel the same,
Everlasting pain of my loss remains,
My heart can't seem to learn to part,
The hold you left your mark,
All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark,

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now, but give in,

*Chorus
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.

The way you left me on the train,
I don't know what to say,
I remember everything of that day,
I can't believe we'd never dance,
I just need one more chance,
To share the sunset,
Our one last romance,

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in,

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go

♥ Thursday, May 17, 2007 ♥

10:12:00 PM

there's this biological sciences test next tue
and now i'm seriously like going crazy?
cause it's like so not easy

test covered what was taught in the whole month
but somehow
i just couldnt understand everything

is it b cos of the fact this is the first test?
or was it that i'm getting panic cause i dunnoe anything?
i dun want to fail this test at all .

and i goanna finish my revision in like 4 days?
which haven exclude one day for project (sun)
one day to collect my fb sticks in sch (sat)
and mon i'm meeting ks to teach on those things
which means i got to finish my revision first

argh. stress-ed!!
and i think in the whole month we were taught
i only understand like less than 1 week of work?
damn it .

♥ Wednesday, May 16, 2007 ♥

8:24:00 PM

MY SISTER IS BUYING ME THE CRUMPLER LAPTOP BAG
oh yeah oh yeah
i'm like so super damn happy
and i'm getting the black one =))))

and i've paid for my fb sticks!
such a nice day with so much things!
and i've decided to get a new contact lens
and i want to go New Urban Male to look for bags
and to buy the sony MP3!!
woo hoo!

phoned my xiao bu after classes
and i realised she wasnt working today
argh sian-ed

so i called MSQ for wendi
and she's working!

so i went to find her, my dear dear!!
missing her to bits and pieces
specially went down to look for her

then i saw the 1ST MAN.
frm IMM last time
see, i've good memories

too bad sze li and yi ping wasnt there .
and i realised something, VERY WRONG .
and trust me, i'm feeling pissed off .

you wasnt as simple as u seemed
you aint the innocent who was well-liked by everyone
cause u aint that simple
and to think i've thought i knew u well enough
it's all WRONG, very wrong .
i hate the current you, but what can i do ?
you will never know the horrible truth .

i wan to head down to PWP
and borrow mk's katherine mcphee disc
and burn them
OH MY GOD
i'm so in love with her songs .
NICE NICE NICE ! =D

♥ Tuesday, May 15, 2007 ♥

9:23:00 PM

It seems like my blog has been constantly updated
with rubbish .

so ya .
today's lab lesson was super INTERESTING la
we had the mannequin's sex organs changed .
damn funny throughout the lessons
cause many hospital jokes were exchanged .
and we learn how to bath sponge a patient !
not forgetting to change the bed linen =)

and foundation of nursing tutorial was funny too !
the lecturer was damn nice la .
i was like rushing for my lunch
so i told my group members to like hurry up and finish the questioning for the lecturer ?
then the lecturer say 'okay, I'll hurry up and say what i should'
SO NICE RIGHT?

i only know i had no idea of what critical thinking was all about
cause i wasn't even listening to the lesson
and i was doing some songs stuffs on my lappie

i think the biology classes require LOTS of attention
i dun quite know many things there la
and test is on next Tuesday ?
i hope i dun fail it cause it's 25% of the score
and I'll waste 6 months for retaking the module

and i'm back to my darling martini textbook again
:)

♥ Monday, May 14, 2007 ♥

9:40:00 PM

tho' there's lots of things which i cant really tell u yet
but if we are really like closer
maybe i can consider telling those facts?
and those things u doesnt even know about me

seriously i think my mum still love me
and she still cares about me
so ya =)

wanna thank sm1
it's like for pei-ing the whole afternoon & evenings?
HAHA. thanks la (u know who u are)
=P

♥ Saturday, May 12, 2007 ♥

11:50:00 PM

today was like so fun!
met fishball verlin and princess diana

first went to have lunch with the two girls and chinhui at pastamina. then after that, chinhui break ended and zhi xiong came so we pei-ed him for lunch and i saw simin and zhi kuang again! after that we went to arcade to play hockey. super high la. and me and zhi xiong win the 2 girls!! HAHA. and i got a pic of zhi xiong eating lolipop and the picture is like super funny la. look like taken in a studio but it's not. HAHA.

& that's zhi xiong!

& did u believe that's me?
i'm not as crazy as zhi xiong!
(i miss my tag!!)

then after that we went about searching for shoes for miss diana cause her leg hurts and she wan to buy a new shoe. so she bought a pair already then we went to CS to take neoprints. it's super fun!!! after that went to the CS toilet and we went high again! take lots of pictures there.. HAHA. waiting for ver to send them to me soon!

taken in CS toilet!!

after that we went to wang zai for dinner! i just had porridge only. it wasnt as bad as how ver had describe them la! and it was with MR RABBIT la, miss diana darling boyfriend! HAHA! then after eating, we went to more than words to buy things.. and i saw the same person at cinelesiure! and he turned out to be rabbit's friend. OMG, small world ar. i bought a BIG box to put all my text book in! and it's super nice.. hahas..

then we went to popular as ver and diana wan to buy things and we took a long long time to wait for them to make up their mind.. hahas. after that we walked down to NTUC to buy things again. and oh man, the two girls are super aunty la! HAHA.

and that's the end of how i spent my saturday.
tiring but full of fun!

THE SPIRIT OF SB14 will NEVER DIE!!! =DDD

♥ Friday, May 11, 2007 ♥

10:33:00 PM

Just when i need a listening ear, i just find myself being helpless and have no one to talk to. somehow ever since the introduction of poly life started, or probably since when i started work, everything seemed to change totally and somehow i wasnt really used to it. secondary sch life is still the best.

had a conversation with my ex e3 ppl. and i just feel that the feeling of us just change. jokes which i might laugh in the past wasnt funny at all. somehow i've become liike a horrible monster who goes around giving sarcastic remarks. this is so unlike me!

doing craziest acts ever, i guess they are my only source of entertainment nowadays. my class people are either those studious type or else they'd b those cant be bothered type. and i'm kinda stuck in the middle , mayb just like some of them too..

it's so not easy trying to fit in.

Practical today was like super funny. Eileen, yee leng and i were busy talking, sms-ing and taking photos in lab even when the teacher is teaching.. COOL MAN.

sweetie looking eileen and me

we love bones!!

me and my bone again..

bonnie ~!!!

it was SUPPOSED to be a nice pic
but Theodore spoils the whole thing
argh.

red blood cell

and my sister and mum keep calling during the time in lab even when i tell them i'm still in class, they sill continue talking like siao like that. lol.

and i met KELVIN YAP! my first library chairman! he's a nice NICE NICE guy and he always talk till no one can hear one. lols! and he's sick. do take care of urself! oh, and he's in NYP too! hahas!

went for shopping today and i think i spent quite a sum of money..

♥ Thursday, May 10, 2007 ♥

10:30:00 PM

my lappie nearly hang me down
and i wonder what's wrong
cause it's like suddenly the start bar was changed to classic instead of XP
i almost had a heart attack okie!

but i believe,
the smart wei-qi has fixed the whole problem
hopefully it doesn't shut down on me anymore
=)

everything just somehow change
we seemed to have drifted in these few days
or rather this few ~~hours~~
and i'm not so used to this ) :

12:40:00 PM

somehow classes in poly are never the same as compared with darling e3
i ~~hate~~ doing self motivation
it sucks totally

it's always like there's distraction in classes
especially in lecture theater
and i'm like always tired in classes

i cant sleep in classes!
i must study study study!
i know it's so NOT like me
but i guessed in poly
this is what i have to do.

with those upcoming ICA
i wanna go kill myself soon

just went to print those CBT stuffs i saw
cost me a bomb cos it's like in colour?
$19.5o for 43 colour printed and 3 B&W

i wanna go buy stuffs soon
i wan to meet everyone
i miss each and everyone ):

but i dun know who i can meet
cause of time again. classes ends at 3
and i have to reach home latest by 7.3o

♥ Wednesday, May 09, 2007 ♥

11:49:00 PM

i was feeling super sick today.
flu and cough.
and my class ppl say i looked pale.

went for floorball training
and i saw kiyoko and huey yen
sounds quite fated eh
didnt know they'd b there

will b paying for my sticks next wed
looking fwd to it..

interesting things i heard from michelle
i rmb my mum always say no washing of face directly after exercising. cause there'll b white spots. WRONG! it wont happen IF u wash ur face with a cleanser. to clear off those dirt and everything =)

i just realised it's been so long
yet i still haven gotten the things i wan in my 'wants list'
):

i want to get a proper shoe for training
and the next thing will b a laptop casing
and then a shoe bag
but i think a sch bag is like equally important?
)))):

think i'm going amk to look for them..
but alone? ):

♥ Tuesday, May 08, 2007 ♥

10:53:00 PM

i think i'm becoming more "MAN" each day. cause i can sleep for like 3 and a half hour at night and i go school feeling energetic la. OH MAN. who can do till this extent other than me? HAHA. my dear friend cant even do it. and he's on the way to his dreamland already.

today school was like crazy. slacking mainly throughout the lessons. critical thinking just sucks! =x and i supposed as usual i just sleep for half the lesson cause i wasn't really feeling well this few days. after any meals i just feel bloated even if i didn't eat a lot. and i'm having stomach upsets la ):

not too sure whether it's from food source or my stomach/liver/what ever wasn't really functioning well, thus i just dun feel good totally): hopefully the discomfort would go away soon then i dun have to see a doctor and to take any medicines =x

something interesting to share..
do u people know that when one is having fever then our parents will put this wet towel on our forehead? it doesn't really reduce the fever but just reduce the discomfort our head is having! interesting right.. all along i got wrong information -.-

oh did i mention, the DNA of a human being is damn interesting especially the sex chromosomes. not really into the sexual contact but sex as in gender. it's about the problem who has extra or lesser chromosome will have what problem. i think human being are just so interesting. but i dun understand why michelle and me have the habit to sleep in LTK-2. probably it's really nice atmosphere la.

i think syed is super unlucky today la. He lost his thumbdrive, all the CT research he had done, did wrong tutorial (like me and sangeeta) and got tickled off by some rubbish stuffs by our lab lecture.. it's just like not his day la..

having floor ball training tomorrow! and i'm like looking forward to it :D although it's sad that pei jun aint going, but Ki-yo-ko (sp??) and huiyan is coming so it aint really that bad i guessed =) been a week plus since i last seen huiyan la.

another group discussion is up next again. damn those tutorials. why do we have to do so much e learning and so much discussion. waste my time!!

went to find mr fadhil together with my long lost friend, dennis (LOL!) at 2o1 there and seriously i think the both of us are superly mean la. we went to buy him a brand of lemon tea which he hate cause of certain incident that happen before that =P and the clerk transfered over here is super pretty!! hahas! no wonder dennis say he (obviously not dennis...) flirt with the clerk over there...

1:55:00 AM

I thought ah boon will be doing relief at TM. but sadly, he didnt turn up ))): i really miss ah boon and ah seng la. the two brothers. LOL. they're so nice ppl. been a long time since i last seen traces of my lao nu ren. i must go down PS someday to look for her man.. wonder who i shall ask along. =P

my mood was super dampened when i realised he's not there.. so sad. then i went back to TPSS to collect my cert. i think my english marks spoil the whole thing. haiz.

got to have my good night sleep already! it's way past my sleeping time already and i've got to wake up at 6 tmr. which is about 4 hours only!! *lights out*

♥ Sunday, May 06, 2007 ♥

8:34:00 PM

resolve the problem of my blogskin problem so now both IE and Firefox can see what my posts are. but somehow i still feel that the view on IE isn't really as nice as those one'd see in Firefox cause of those spaces in between certain boxes.

my class has a blog.lol

♥ Saturday, May 05, 2007 ♥

8:33:00 PM

floorball training was nice although i must say the timing really half way through cause it's like 2pm till 5pm. but we went at 5.3o and i went to change. after that exchanged numbers with pei jun and we went back home. it's like so not easy to find people living in the east..

i really want to join floorball.. but somehow i'm reluctant to give up kayaking. even tho' i know i'm not really cut for kayaking cause i don't really have the energy to do those inclined pull ups tho' i can run la. so i guessed i might be giving up that )):

* * *

lab work 1o91 was damn nice.. interesting and we can really learn a lot of things. i realised something thru the last lesson. I dun have a regular heartbeat and my heartbeats are rather faint.. am i dying soon? =x

i think my lecture is rather strict but i think she's really NICE!
1 min late = absent
I'll remember that man. hahas

* * *

人心难测。。
is it true that the person isn't really as nice as how i perceive? i'm confused. she's really someone close to my heart. but somehow it seems like people do change. she is no longer the same person i used to know a long time ago. probably i'm just naive, and unsure of what my future holds for me..

now i understand why it means when i always say "BK 没有秘密". now i finally understood the whole theory. no no, let me rephrase: now i think i understood what it means.

~ * ~ * ~ * ~

why do people love to back stab, bad mouth each other? is this really the human nature? does everyone purposely ~~or unintentionally~~ do those things? all along i thought all this are for kids, like in primary school. so why is it like i see them in secondary schools and in so many places.

everyone seems to be changing, and slowly i can sense myself changing too. my temper has been rather curbed though i still have this habit of shooing back at people.. but somehow i have a higher expectations for my e3 friends... sigh.. is this a good sign or not?

somehow i feel rather depressed
more time are spend on day dreaming
instead of productive learning

and i wondered if TRUE FRIENDS still exist

somehow i'm just not so me
but on the other hand,
i'm still the same old me

♥ Thursday, May 03, 2007 ♥

11:00:00 PM

looking at the video in CT really makes me think whether i'm really cut to be a nurse. i mean seriously la, so many things to face with. the sisters, doctors, patients, patients' families. doing OT and everything.

somehow the honey moon period has really gone and i really need to get back to my feet to prepare for this long long route i'm planning in my life. seriously speaking, i've absolutely no idea what is it like working in the hospital. I've never been into one (other than the time i was born) and i've absolutely no idea what is the life inside. is it dead or is it lively? which part of the hospital do i want to be specialized in? which hospital do i want to go? will i do any mistake to harm my client? all those thoughts are like running while in my head.

i hope i can preserve in nursing. at least i want to get my staff nurse position and that's getting a diploma. if i can get it, i believe obtaining a adv dip and then to a degree wont be too hard then.

* * *

project works are like getting me mad. lots of work and e learning to do.. yet it seems so little time.. duration on the bus are like forever and i'm getting home everyday almost at 7. getting a bath and by the time i finish my dinner would be like 8pm already. got to do project research and doing e learning it wouldnt be long and it'd be 11, 12already. and i have to get up at 5 or 6 each morning. and i have to endure for another 3 years. OMG.